Sunday, 5 February 2012

an act of will

some part of me felt
that it was an act of will
her leaving
she had been
waving goodbye
disappearing in slivers
years before the Alzheimer's
"the disappearing woman"
I kept thinking

fear and pain
overtook her - a floater - she started to sink
exercise, relaxation therapy, self hypnosis,
drugs; they all slowed things down
but nothing could save her
not even me

before that
the two of us together
couldn't save her husband
my dad